Pictures Of You

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
That I almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you
That I almost believe that the pictures are all I can feel

Remembering you standing quiet in the rain
As I ran to your heart to be near
And we kissed as the sky fell in holding you close
How I always held close in your fear
Remembering you running soft through the night
You were bigger and brighter and wider than snow
And screamed at the make-believe
Screamed at the sky
And you finally found all your courage to let it all go

Remembering you fallen into my arms
Crying for the death of your heart
You were stone white so delicate lost in the cold
You were always so lost in the dark
Remembering you how you used to be slow drowned
You were angels so much more than everything
Hold for the last time then slip away quietly
Open my eyes but I never see anything

If only I'd thought of the right words
I could have held on to your heart
If only I'd thought of the right words
I wouldn't be breaking apart all my pictures of you

Looking so long at these pictures of you
But I never hold on to your heart
Looking so long for the words to be true
But always just breaking apart my pictures of you

There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more
Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more
Than to never feel the breaking apart
All my pictures of you

Closedown

I´m running out of time I´m out of step and closing down
And never sleep for wanting hours
The empty hours of greed
And uselessly always the need
To feel again the real belief
Of something more than mockery
If only I could fill my heart with love

Last Dance

I'm so glad you came
I'm so glad you remembered
To see how we're ending our last dance together
Expectant too puctual
But prettier than ever
I really believe that this time it's forever

But older than me now more constant more real
And the fur and the mouth and the innocence
Turned to hair and contentment that hangs in abasement
A woman now standing where once there was only a girl

I'm so glad you came
I'm so glad you remembered
The walking through walls in the heart of December
The blindness of happiness of falling down laughing
And I really believed that this time was forever

But Christmas falls late now flatter and colder
And never as bright as when we used to fall
All this in an instant before I can kiss you
A woman now standing where once there was only a girl

I'm so glad you came
I'm so glad you remembered
To see how we're ending our last dance together
Reluctantly cautiously
But prettier than ever
I really believe that this time it's forever

But Christmas falls late now flatter and colder
And never as bright as when we used to fall
And even if we drink I don't think we would kiss
in the way that we did
When the woman was only a girl

Fascination Street

Oh it's opening time down on Fascination Street
So let's cut the conversation and get out for a bit
Because I feel it all fading and paling
And I'm begging to drag you down with me
To kick the last nail in
Yeah! I like you in that like
I like you to scream but if you open your mouth
Then I can't be responsible for quite what goes in
Or to care what comes out
So just pull on your hair just pull on your pout
And let's move to the beat like we know that it's over
If you slip going under slip over my shoulder
So just pull on your face just pull on your feet
And let's hit opening time down on Fascination Street

So pull on your hair pull on your pout
Cut the conversation just open your mouth
Pull on your face pull on your feet
And let's hit opening time down on Fascination Street

Prayers For Rain

You shatter me your grip on me
A hold on me so dull it kills
You stifle me infectious sense of hopelessness
And prayers for rain
I suffocate I breathe in dirt and nowhere shines
but desolate and drab the hours all spent on killing time again
All waiting for the rain

You fracture me your hands on me
A touch so plain so stale it kills
You strangle me entangle me in hopelessness and
Prayers for rain
I deteriorate I live in dirt and nowhere glows
But drearily and tired the hours all spent on killing time again
All waiting for the rain

You fracture me your hands on me
A touch so plain so stale it kills
You strangle me entangle me in hopelessness
And prayers for rain
Prayers for rain
Prayers for rain
Prayers for rain

Disintegration

Oh I miss the kiss of treachery
The shameless kiss of vanity
The soft and the black and the velvety up tight against the side of me
And mouth and eyes and heart all bleed
And run in thickening streams of greed
As bit by bit it starts the need to just let go my party piece

Oh I miss the kiss of treachery
The aching kiss before I feed
The stench of a love for a younger meat
And the sound that it makes when it cuts in deep the holding up
On bended knees the addiction of duplicities
As bit by bit it starts the need to just let go my party piece

But I never said I would stay to the end
So I leave you with babies
and hoping for frequency screaming like this
In the hope of the secrecy screaming me over and over and over
I leave you with photographs pictures of trickery
Stains on the carpet and stains on the scenery
Songs about happiness murmured in dreams
When we both us knew how the ending would be...

So it's all come back round to breaking apart again
Breaking apart like I'm made up of glass again
Making it up behind my back again
Holding my breath for the fear of sleep again
Holding it up behind my head again
Cut in deep to the heart of the bone again
Round and round and round
And it's coming apart again over and over and over

Now that I know that I'm breaking to pieces
I'll pull out my heart and I'll feed it to anyone
Crying for sympathy crocodiles
Cry for the love of the crowd
And the three cheers from everyone
Dropping through sky through the glass of the roof
Through the roof of your mouth
Through the mouth of your eye
Through the eye of the needle
It's easier for me to get closer to heaven
Than ever feel whole again

I never said I would stay to the end
I knew I would leave you with babies and everything
Screaming like this in the hole of sincerity
Screaming me over and over and over
I leave you with photographs pictures of trickery
Stains on the carpet and stains on the memory
Songs about happiness murmured in dreams
When we both of us knew how the end always is...

How the end always is...

Homesick

Hey hey! Just one more and I'll walk away
All the everything you win turns to nothing today
And I forget how to move when my mouth is this dry
And my eyes are bursting hearts in a blood-stained sky
Oh it was sweet It was wild and oh how we...
I trembled stuck in honey honey cling to me
So just one more just one more go
Inspire in me the desire in me to never go home

Oh just one more and I'll walk away
All the everything you win turns to nothing today
So just one more just one more go
Inspire in me the desire in me to never go home

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Hopelessly drift in the eyes of the ghost again
Down on my knees and my hands in the air again
Pushing my face in the memory of you again
But I never know if It´s real
Never know how I wanted to feel

Never quite said what I wanted to say to you
Never quite managed the words to explain to you
Never quite knew how to make them believable
And now the time has gone
Another time undone

Never quite said what I wanted to say to you
Never quite managed the words to explain to you
Never quite knew how to make them believable
And now the time has gone
Another time undone

Hopelessly fighting the devil futility
Feeling the monster climb deeper inside of me
Feeling him gnawing my heart away hungrily
I´ll never lose this pain
Never dream of you again